Conflicting

I regret that I love him.
My brain reject that I regret.

I confess that I love him.
My brain reject my confess.

I rejoice that I love him.
My brain reject my rejoice.

I thanked the world for making him for me.
My brain reject my thankful thought.

My heart believe one day I will be exultation .
My brain reject my believe.
And I become out of control.